* LETS FEED THESE BIRDS!!!*
Dec 28, 2018
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Ma7RF5C6CxQ

good morning and welcome to Thursday yes
I have the right day today this is what
I was showing you guys yesterday look
see it's clear and then it's red because
my hands are cold and warm on my the
pressure part so they switch over
anyways we are on our way to take this
little young monster to the dentist to
have his space are taken out and then
talk to the dentist about Isis but but
I'm hoping you guys are having a
wonderful start to your guys this
morning as well as we are it's just been
all about showers and each other ready
so to break that we just taking showers
getting dressed all that good stuff and
now we're on our way to the dentist so
anyways I'll check in with you guys in a
little bit let me get the kids ready in
Britain so my kids decided to throw food
out of their window right okay I don't
see work music can you see it yeah
there's a little bit right there well
this little guy thought that he wanted
to come up and eat some food so now my
kids are like freaking out because
Esther says he's a beautiful bird person
you're waiting for my to get done with
you I love you bird how cute
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stink don't bump the window Marquez
you'll scare him they love when we go to
the park and do we will let them feed
the birdies the ducks or whatever you
call them
that is like their highlight and we
haven't been able to do it for a while
because it's been like so nasty and
stuff but our spring time / summer time
that's like one of the things that we
like to do is go to the park and feed
the birds their thing that's their jam
yeah he's trying honey but you're
scaring them he's coming he's coming
he's a-coming oh there's another one
right there he's circling around he's
probably thinking no I want some lunch
too he wants to come so bad but I think
the kids have scared him out sweet oh
let's see if he'll come to it
hero Marco here yes hold on yes
hold on okay go back there Ezra you have
to go back there okay don't be loud
don't be loud you'll scare him
Shh you can't talk to him because he'll
scare okay hold on you guys let him hold
on hold on let him catch up to what you
guys are throwing out there
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honey he's coming but hold on because
you guys are being loud hey hold on let
him eat those ones first hold on
I love this this is like the highlight
of my day it's like watching them it
gets so excited over a seagull my kids
would love to be I know clearly they
love beach there's one clear up there
he's eyeballing cuz he's seen look at
look at I want food look he's right
there
I don't know if you guys can see him
he's right there he's eyeballing us he's
saying I'm not forward good no it is
seven
it's almost it's 7:15 almost so I guess
I should say good evening
oh my gosh you guys I am been so like
vinyl happy that I yah no Kanaka pollute
alone the pieces void I came home at I'm
gonna say three and I literally came
straight in and sat from three to seven
it took me 18 minutes to clean my area
up cuz I try my hardest to clean up
every night before it's bedtime just so
that way then my area looks really good
I'll have to show you guys a picture of
before the next time wall I'll be
pulling it out tomorrow but when I start
working again on with the vinyl oh my
gosh it looks like a hot mess like
someone just came in like a tornado like
it literally looks like my kids came in
and had some fun with with the vinyl and
all the SH ready but um I'll have to do
it before and then an after because
definitely oh my god it looks like
someone let loose when I'm done with all
my stuff but oh my god you guys I didn't
I made so many more thing why me let's
see three more shirts and I did a
cutting board I'm so excited and it
turned out really good now I have to say
that so when I did the cutting board
because there's there's different vinyl
for different projects if you're doing
something on
you have to use heat transfer vinyl
which is a TV HTV if I can speak and
then there's regular vinyl that is
permanent vinyl that's for like things
that go on glass and tumblers and cars
stuff like car decals things like
anything that you want it to stick and
not come off you would use permanent
vinyl then you have removable vinyl
which is what you would use for like
wall stickers anything that you want to
be able to remove at some time and just
be able to peel it off
you would use removable vinyl and so uh
anyways i i've been using the heat
transfer vinyl for my shirts and stuff
and let me tell you there is such a
difference between heat vinyl or HTV or
permanent meinl holy cow or it's also
known as six five one yes I'm learning
all that I'm learning all the lingo you
guys because this is my business now and
I think it's six three one now I'm gonna
put myself him put my foot in my mouth I
think it's three six three one is
removable vinyl I'm gonna have to look
it up anyways um but the difference in
the vinyl fill holy cow what a
difference but it was so much fun oh my
gosh I had so much fun doing it and I
just now I've got it down and that it's
like my speed starting to pick up a
little bit I'm still you know I'm it
takes me a while to come up with the the
pictures like the images because you
know I freestyle my images a lot of
times or I'll maybe get a little bit of
an idea but I go in and I freestyle it
myself and make it how I kind of wanted
not all the time
and so or I put like different pictures
together oh you be careful oh you must
know a tattoo artist he's still running
but it's just oh my gosh I have just
been having so much fun it's like so
hard to get away from it and my poor
family is probably like gosh now we know
what having a working mom and meeting
feels um but yeah so I literally sat and
worked on all of that I'm so excited to
show you guys what I've done and what
else that was pretty much it
other than what you guys seen when we
left we ended up going to Walmart give
me my tea and you know what so I figured
this out I think I'm gonna actually do
this instead of what I was doing so they
have there's two different brands of tea
they have the great value brand which is
Walmart brand and then they have Milo's
bran which Milo's brand it's zero
calories and it's not at I mean it's
sweet but it's not as sweet as the great
value okay you got to be careful walmart
brand it's got like the extra punch of
sweetness and I don't like that I don't
like drinking something that has a lot
of sweetness to it even like when I
order like my eye which I haven't even
gotten a tea from Dutch brothers and
forever I haven't gotten a coffee from
Starbucks which is I'm like thank God
because I'm kind of getting off the kick
of that whole needing caffeine 24/7
because I'm a headache
um and I'm not getting my calories in
that way which is nice too I haven't had
a Starbucks in what are we on we're on
Thursday I'm gonna see the last time I
had a Starbucks was last Saturday I want
to say I'd have to go back and look on
my my vlogs but I think it was last
Saturday this last Saturday which is a
lot for me because normally I was
getting a coffee
huh-huh
spaghetti who's having spaghetti you may
have some - yes thank you for asking
anyways so the Walmart brand it's really
extra sweet but all he could not find
them Milo's brand today when he ran in
because I stayed in with the kids so
just like I am NOT beating the crowds
not today but my baby I love you so
anyways what I did was I took my tumbler
and I fill it half with water and then I
just filled the rest up with the tea so
I'm only getting half the tea it's still
zero calorie and everything but it's
half the sweetness because I I water it
down so I'm technically getting zero
calories no matter what but I'm getting
in half my water and just drinking in
one of these and this is my second one
today don't you like my straw isn't that
cute guess who did that you would never
guess well I'm sure you guys probably do
ding ding me Omar yeah okay can we just
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okay can we talk about that in a little
bit okay anyways yeah my son has a
tendency to chew on straws and literally
this is a hard plastic straw guys and he
chewed on it I told all the I was like
mmm not doing this with him
but anyways god I love him he's my son
so anyways we went to Walmart got my tea
and then that was the only thing I had
to get we had a sandwich while we were
out as a sub solid sub sandwich from
sandwich Express and a turkey sandwich
was really good it was really good and
then Ollie is actually cooking dinner
now which I am getting so hungry
my stomach's talking I told you okay I
will talk to you in just a little bit
okay shut my door please
that's yes that's Paddington the bear
okay cool go play please Heelys is
Paddington daddy got him Paddington like
two years ago yeah it would have been
two years ago cuz he got s rough for her
first Valentine's the girl off of
Paddington okay go play so anyways I
want to show you guys what I made so
hold on just a minute this is for a
shirt sorry it's wrinkled a little bit
just because I have it laying down all
rumpled up but uh anyways here is her
unicorn shirt and then on the back this
is the part that I love love love so I
put princess mermaid unicorn it doesn't
matter I am special mmm that's the back
of her shirt there's the unicorn and
then back here and then here is Omar's I
just did two of the little guys on
Sesame Street so Cookie Monster I
thought about putting like a big ol
cookie here and I maybe a cookie here I
didn't but I can always go back and add
that to his shirt just because there's
like really nothing on these sections so
I thought about doing that or putting
like a couple cookies around and then
something that Elmo does I'm not really
sure what Elmo does maybe right tickle
tickle or I don't know something
something corny you know but that's his
my back of his shirt it says mommy's
little monster I thought about putting
like a little cookie right here or
something I don't know or maybe one
right here I so I know no I might still
add stuff to his which if I do I'll
definitely show you guys but for now
this is what I did mm-hm here's my shirt
exercise slash extra fries I am in love
with this shirt though I love it
what and then his other have nothing on
the back of it but my cutting board arm
I made bless this mess I put it on the
back of his shirt so you guys can kind
of see it a little bit cuz it's kind of
shiny but if it was on the counter it
would be like that and the words are on
the back which it's a permanent so it's
and they're not gonna come off but I did
that so like you know if someone just
say wanted to actually use it as a
cutting board they wouldn't be cutting
into the words but yeah isn't that cute
I love it look at is what I did today
like all afternoon was playing with my
stuff away from that and then I'm gonna
read a couple of our comments because I
haven't read any for a couple of days
out to you guys anyways so I'm gonna
read some and I first wanted to stop
again and say thank you and welcome to
all of my new subscribers I appreciate
you all so much for all the positivity
encouragement the support I could not
imagine not having each and every one of
you guys as individuals on my channel
you all bring out something so good in
me and you definitely make my days worth
waking up and picking up my camera and
vlogging and sharing my life my journey
my story with every one of you guys you
know some days are harder than others
for me because life is life you know and
sometimes I get caught up and just you
know life but I mean for the most part I
just I love vlogging I like I've shared
with you guys before this is 100% a
complete passion of mine and I honestly
could not imagine life any other way
than spending it vlogging sharing my
YouTube sharing my journey giving this a
chance for everybody's potful
to share things you know and talk to
people and you know also reach out and
get that support and encouragement that
they may need and so I just want to
welcome everybody and again thank you so
much Jen I so appreciate you sharing my
channel and bringing the most amazing
people from your channel on over to my
channel I just am so grateful and thank
you so much I really really from the
bottom of my heart
appreciate everything you have done I'm
gonna jump into some messages really
quick and I will correspond and respond
back to them so my first one is from my
video very emotional vlog Karen quick
says so sorry for your sadness and I had
tears right along with you oh my husband
and I could never have a baby the normal
way so we ended up adopting two babies
from India and that was 30 years ago Wow
they have become one of the best things
that we ever did they are adults now and
good people and return that love every
day I especially felt sad at times
through all of the pregnancy tests
doctor's appointments and fertility
drugs that we never begin because of the
dangers that could happen I see it all
now as a true blessing that we got such
a loving family that we had to go
through those sad times to see the
beauty in it all your yep I am wishing
you the best I didn't have a childhood
like you but you can now think of it is
a happy time that you make for your kids
you give them such happiness for them
now and I know that they love you to
death hugs and kisses to you Oh Karen Oh
Karen first of all I am so so sorry that
you ever had to go through infertility
as somebody that dealt with it myself is
one of the most painful and emptiest
feelings and one of the most sad times
that you can ever experience and lonely
times I think that sometimes people
don't realize that couples that go
through infant their infertility
they actually feel so alone so alone I
felt so alone and detached from the
world at times you kind of have to
because all around you there's women
getting pregnant people that you know
getting pregnant and they want to
experience the celebrations and the
excitement of course I want them to too
and so does others that you know suffer
from infertility but it definitely
doesn't take away the pain
and the the severe desire sorry my
children the sincere desire to want to
bear your own children you know but to
be able to adopt two babies especially
from out of the country what a beautiful
beautiful experience like that is that's
such an amazing story and I am so glad
that you were able to share that with us
because honestly I think sometimes
people think that you know because they
can't bear children themselves naturally
that the doors are completely shut you
know and they're closed
and it's just if if I could only just
share those kind words of never give up
hope because there's children out there
that so desire a family and no matter
which way you get them whether it's
through foster care or you know through
adoption agencies traveling through
countries I mean you name it there's
ways to do it never ever give up hope
because there's always hope somewhere
that your family can be completed no
matter wait no matter which way whether
the children come out of you or they
come from somewhere else and that you
bring them into your family they become
a part of you in a big Harpe you guys
all become one as a united family and so
I'm so happy that you shared your story
and at the same time I am so sad that
you and your husband had to go through
those things but what a blessing
in disguise that you were able to parent
to beautiful other children so I'm so
happy that it all worked out for you huh
let's see Oh life by Jim let's see let's
see let's see my sweet dear Jim you are
very welcome and do not apologize for
your kiddos their kids sweet lovable
full of energy kids if people have an
issue with kids being well kids then
they shouldn't watch oh my gosh that
sure is so cute what are the biggest
size shirts you can make I hope you make
more of these types of videos I love
watching you create so fun
Oh Jen thank you so much so much you
tickle me I swear Tickle Me Elmo now um
so first and foremost thank you again I
really apologize apologize I really
appreciate everything and you know and
you're right my kids are kids they're
only gonna be kids once you know and I
try my hardest not to you know I do my
best to encourage my kids to be kids you
know be respectful and be polite is one
thing but you know my kids just come as
loud kids like Jeremiah has always been
a very very quiet child to himself like
he's just always been that way all -
were on the other hand oh they came out
being loud I mean Omar was born at 32
weeks gestation and they thought I mean
they had the breathing equipment ready
and everything
oh no that little boy came out with the
most loudest lungs that the doctor just
looked at me and was like are you sure
because he wasn't the doctor that
delivered Omar was not the job not my
normal doctor and he was like are you
sure that they didn't mess up on the
gestation of him and I was like
I don't know I was like I you know I
said here's the thing when I went in and
I found out I was pregnant with Omar I
calculated I was seven weeks earlier or
seven weeks further than they were
saying and they were like no no no no
you know you're how many other weeks it
was I don't remember now but I always
kept saying no I'm seven weeks further
but I just went back to what they said
because you know doctors and nurses they
know and my doctor is amazing oh my gosh
I love my doctor and so I mean you know
and he didn't he didn't do the the
configuring and calculation it was the
nurse which now he doesn't even work for
the office anymore
he actually works at a different office
where I followed him because I'm like
nope you're not get away from me now but
anyways I so when I went to go and
deliver him my water just broke
like there was no I I I could have been
experiencing contractions but I have
such a high tolerance of pain that
literally what would probably be very
very painful to some it wasn't really
too painful for me I don't know but my
water just randomly broke one morning
and I went into the the hospital you
know I called I said I think I think my
water broke and they're like okay well
come on in and well you know check you I
went in they swab me and they're like
yeah it's you're a meiotic fluid and so
but you know at that time they're saying
I was 32 weeks so we were trying to do
everything we could to stop labor and
will not stop labor but they were
wanting to hold off a couple of days if
they could which kind of worried me cuz
I thought God I thought that I was I was
under the understanding that once your
water breaks you have 24 hours to
deliver or you can get like infections
and stuff but they were like well we
would like to at least try and keep you
and now another week and I'm like like
my water broke like what the heck
anyways so speed up a little bit I ended
up delivering the following
because my water was just it was going
too fast and they were coming in every
three hours I think and doing as a
sonogram to check my fluid and he wasn't
moving so come to find out he had the
cord wrapped around his neck that would
be Omar the one that couldn't settle
down but he had the cord wrapped around
his neck so when they went to go and
deliver him they of course had to you
know fix all of that but he came out
screaming like no joke like no joke and
they were just like are you sure he's
only a 32 gestation baby I'm like I
don't know I say something totally
different but they said I'm that's what
I am so that's what I'm going by so he
was in the NICU but technically I mean
he didn't he never was on breathing
machines never on nothing the only thing
that they had him hooked to was like the
heart you know machine and stuff he
never had to go into an incubator
nothing like he wasn't that he was he
had none of that problem and then with
Ezra Ezra came out she was 38 week
gestation so of course she was full-term
but holy cow she had a loud lungs whoa
that girl could scream so they just I
don't know where in the world I went off
on that subject but anyways they just
they're loud kids they really are and I
just embraced them and I love I love
them but I also try and remind them okay
you guys inside voices but you know it
is hard sometimes because I know that my
kids can be annoying to people sometimes
so it's like sorry huh but you're right
you know I mean this is a family channel
and you know my babies are here for the
long haul like they're not going
anywhere so I'm working on it but I
can't guarantee they're just not gonna
cry or scream or be loud because I just
that that's in their blood um okay do-do
oh okay and the shirts so Jin message me
through Facebook and we can talk
there is no sighs that I cannot make I
can go up to 9 X I mean literally
honestly I could go up to as big as
anybody needs so for your
confidentiality you know cuz I'm sure
you don't want to just like purely
discuss sizes and stuff and I know you
completely agree I'm the same way
um message me through Facebook and we
can definitely talk and see what you
know what would work for you and I would
definitely make you something my love
definitely so anywho okay on to the next
one lekha girl your 5k cool is excellent
you are really committed to your healthy
changes yeah I am and I am so excited I
am like hesitant about this weigh-in
because I feel very swollen and I don't
know why but I always say that and then
I end up losing so knock on wood maybe I
don't know but yes I am very committed
to my weight loss and I am so committed
to the change because I don't want to be
in this boat for the rest of my life
like I see little bits of my life coming
back into my hands and I want it all and
I want it all now so we work hard you
don't want to you know you don't want to
give it up and you don't want to mess it
up I've come so far you know I've been
doing this for you know five and a half
months and I you know this is the
longest that I've ever really stucked to
something but I really believe that this
time around I have stuck to it because I
really truly wanted it going through
that heart stuff that I went through
right before all of this happened really
really put things into perspective for
me that it's no joke you know your your
plane Russia let with your own or
however you say it you're playing with
your heart and that's not that's not
anything to play with you know once your
heart says I'm tired and it wants to go
to sleep
you can't talk to it to keep it going
you know it's gonna stop it's gonna stop
and I understand you can have a heart
stop at 90 pounds I get that but if I
can do things to help myself to the best
of my ability I'm going to do what I can
do and only hope that my body will
reverse itself so that I can have the
best ability in quality of life for as
long as I'm on this earth so yeah oh
yeah thanks emailing you now also I love
your nail color oh no laugh out loud I
got to the next part sad sorry dear I
got caught up with holiday things Lika
messaged you on here already I commented
but I'm in a comment to you again
no worries love no worries I got you
there's no problem I still need you to
email me so I can get your address but
you are definitely gonna get something I
completely understand I was more so why
I say 24 hours because you know you have
people that come and go off your channel
all the time and so I never know who's
standing you know who stayed around
since you know because I get names drawn
in at you know throughout the whole
month and what if something comes up and
they want to leave my channel between
that time which is totally fine you know
I get it things happen but um you know I
do the 24 hours so we're not sitting and
waiting for so long to wait for somebody
to apply and be like oh or apply let's
see if I can top my goodness reply back
to me and so that's why I just said it
for 24 hours but no honey it's totally I
am 100% understanding I get it I do so
we're gonna call this a two winner month
because I totally am game for that and
you know why that's why if we get to
play with it right so like I please
email me so I can get your your address
and cruise I already got yours so we are
good to go um yeah so don't worry about
it I've totally am okay Jodie
w Jodie I have a question with your last
name W is that
really your last name like is that how
it is w because if so that is hilarious
I absolutely love love love the way that
that is I was just looking at her right
now and I'm like w w w was he odd I just
I love how that was W that is so cute
you'll have to message me and tell me
yay did all the new subbies I'm subbed
to Jen and seeing her video and just
squealed when she said your shout out
first awesome shirt you made Amy way
cute I love it would you would love to
see how you put vinyl on an object just
sticks see you tomorrow
oh my gosh just so here I just wouldn't
did this one and I didn't even show you
guys but don't worry there's gonna be
many many many more so I will record
that totally I completely get that and
yes I know I was so happy and excited
when I heard her well I didn't hear it I
didn't know she that she had called me
out until after
maybe if it wasn't by itself maybe if it
was like on a Kerry made homemade
actually babe I like that he made a
homemade hummus but see I don't like
hummus but he and tell me that until
after I ate it and then it I was like
because it almost looked like mashed
potatoes so I was like heck is that and
he's like it's hummus but then once I
like let it sit in my mouth the eye does
it does taste good but I thought it was
mashed potatoes at first
clearly I'm seeing things because I'm so
hung I'm so hungry then he turns around
he's like so what do you want to eat for
dinner boy I thought you were in there
cookie yeah I didn't know you were
cooking my dinner yet
like you know I'm expecting it um but
he's he's too funny I just love him um
anyways I swear I am not staying fullest
tonight Amy who I will show you guys how
to do sticking vinyl on like just type
well I can do it on anything it doesn't
have to be just this it could be on
anything so maybe I'll do wha
maybe I'll do you know what maybe I'll
do my cup tomorrow cuz I can dry it
really good tomorrow or tonight and then
alcohol it and do that I bet you I could
probably do that tomorrow
so anyways yes why don't you all need me
right now okay shut my door and then
we'll discuss things so yes I will show
you guys how to stick that to the thing
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okay hold on sweetie hold on oh let's
see Nicole Robertson Robinson that shirt
is so cute you are talented I am sure
your business will do amazingly well I
am so excited for you thank you I
appreciate that I really do and I truly
hope that people enjoy my products as
much as I'm enjoying mink even um let's
see cruise I need to get you to do some
panties for me y'all I am so excited to
do those I just look at my kids they're
so excited to get their shot yeah okay
but yes I will definitely do panties for
anybody and you could put anything you
want because once I make it and sell it
I am NOT gonna think twice about who's
wearing them so no worrys in that
direction okay
old-school mama mrs. Amy if you don't if
you do not mind me ask you what software
do you use for editing actually I use
iMovie and that's it I've been trying to
play around with different softwares
like trying to figure out different
niches but I haven't figured out
anything yet so I I've only used iMovie
but if anybody has any other suggestions
on things let me know because
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look at your shabby air look at this
your hair needs to be put back that's
disgusting
I am your mother disgusting who brought
you into this world get my jacket zipped
um anyways he always does that every
time you kiss him he wipes it off it's
like all right I'll see if your life
likes this when you get married don't
shabby old hair hose I wish she would
let us cut it but he won't many we bring
scissors out he's out the dorms mile
down the road before we come to him it's
like you know I could be doing nothing
all day I could be not vlogging a half
of the afternoon but then all of a
sudden my kids think meaning the minute
that camera comes out they need mom's
attention it's like you want us to go
but all right go on
I tell my husband that - babe just go
home he doesn't get it because he sticks
around ok one more comment and then
we'll close biker babe okay I will be
the oddball and say you that was so
gross ha ha ha not my cell of eating for
sure laugh out loud hope his lordship
enjoyed it though giggle giggle love ya
biker I'm gonna bite you so hard you're
not helping us here no it is so good
don't knock it until you try it that's
alright oh my kids now are you go to bed
hungry
no it is something that you have to you
have to have the mouth but not the mouth
but I don't know what I'm trying to say
like you have to have the word hello you
guys yell for me what am I trying to say
you got to have the the tastebuds for it
hi I'm seeing it wrong but oh well
anyways y'all know what I mean
you have to really enjoy stuff like that
so you know if it's something that you
don't normally eat I wouldn't suggest
you trying it because it was probably
something that you wouldn't really care
for but then again you might honestly
really really like it like me at the
beginning mm-hmm you'd get me nowhere
close to that stuff like all he would
cook it and I would like disappear I'd
be like yeah now I'll make my own
breakfast but now I love it like I I
love it
so everybody's different um it's kind of
a you know a thing that you either like
it or you don't but then again I didn't
like it and then I liked it so anywho
and yes his lordship did enjoy it oh my
gosh well I hope you guys had a
wonderful wonderful Thursday you guys I
can't believe it's already gonna be
Friday tomorrow where has this week gone
it has gone so fast here we've just got
a few more days and it's already gonna
be 2019 like holy cow I never thought
this far ahead if that makes sense like
when you're younger you don't think
about oh you know and 2019 this is gonna
be going on like you just never think
about that and here we are in 2019 it's
like wow I encourage you guys as we're
coming up to that week of the new year
you know people people start new you
know new things in life for the new year
and some work and some don't but
something that I really encourage you
guys as we go into the new year and
we're all in our different areas of life
and journeys and struggles and
accomplishments something that I think
that you should do is sit back and
really reflect on this whole year where
it's taken you where where are you
started in 2018
you know January 1st 2018 where were you
and where are you today and where do you
want to be right when 2019 starts write
those things down write them down
somewhere special and in 2020 when we
come into the next year go back and look
at that page where your life is right
now starting in 2019 see how much
honestly changes throughout the year you
know me and oli we have a tradition
every year at the beginning of the year
we stop and we write things on a paper
almost like a letter talk to each other
of the things that we accomplished as a
couple things that we accomplished apart
or singly you know and things that we
want to see ourselves achieve and every
year on New Year's Eve we sit and we
read those letters to each other just to
see where our lives really have gotten
to and I think this year is the biggest
year of change for me I think this year
has been the first year that I have
really really truly embraced everything
that I have gone through from trauma as
a child the abuse neglect and every
thing in between I think that you know
this year I finally learned how to truly
start closing some really hard chapters
but allowing myself to open up some very
beautiful chapters and one of them are
you guys you know I started this channel
and I have gained the most amazing and
the most beautiful beautiful people and
each and every one of you guys means so
much to me and you all have made an
impact on my life for 2018 and I could
not imagine my life not having you guys
all a part of my life now and so
sometimes you know when you have it if
you get an animal or you have a baby and
you'll sit back and you'll be like what
was life before we had you know XY and Z
you know because I do that with my kids
over like gosh what was life before I
had Omar nusra and Mayan you know what
was life like I just couldn't imagine my
life without them and that's kind of how
I am with my channel is I could not now
vision myself without having this
amazing channel that has brought so many
good and positive things to me and I
just cannot wait to see where 2019 is
gonna take us all because we have become
such an amazing chain of people that I
think throughout the entire year I think
we're just gonna see so many different
lives change including myself I am still
working hard hard hard on closing some
very hard chapters and there's more to
close than this next year but you know
what as one closes another one opens
and those opened ones are ones that I
get to finally really sit and spend my
time with and nourish and blossom and
water because I want those chapters to
be what shows and all those gloomy
chapters to finally be closed and never
opened again so I just really encourage
you as we're coming up to the new year
to really sit back and just really
reflect and ask yourself where was I on
January
first 2018 in life and where am i today
and really sit back and look at what
your differences are I bet you anything
you're gonna be so shocked because I've
seen so many of you guys already
changing throughout just the few months
that I've been a part of you guys that I
could only imagine what your guys's
stories are gonna be for the whole year
so anyways that's something that I'm
gonna be working on this week and
getting things together and yeah and
what do you guys do when you guys ring
in the new year is there anything fun
any fun traditions for us we make a
beautiful turkey dinner for that's for
New Year's Day but for New Year's Eve we
stay home I don't really feel
comfortable being out driving there's a
lot of a lot of not so good drivers
driving during that time because there's
a lot of partying and stuff so I'd
rather keep my family safe inside and so
we're gonna hunker down and watch movies
and have some healthy snacks this year
we'll bring out some naughty ones too
I'm sure and we will just I love
watching the New Year's Eve show that's
on TV and watch the ball drop and get my
smoochy Moochie from my husband husband
and give each of my babies a kiss and
then we all go tonight while the
fireworks are going on around us but
anyways all right you guys I'm gonna
close this vlog but I hope you guys had
an amazing day today and I hope you guys
enjoyed my vlog and I will check in with
you guys tomorrow Brian's shiny in the
morning until then you guys sweet dreams
bye-bye
